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POISON THE WELL
You Come Before You (2003)
Tear From The Red (2002)
The Opposite Of December... A Season Of Seperation (1999)
Distance Only Makes The Heart Grow Fonder (1998)
You Come Before You
1. Ghostchant
2. Loved Ones
3. For A Bandaged Iris
4. Meeting Again For The First Time
5. A) The View From Here Is... B) A Brick Wall
6. The Realist
7. Zombies Are Good For Your Health
8. The Opinionated Are So Opinionated
9. Apathy Is A Cold Body
10. Sounds Like The End Of The World
11. Pleasant Bullet
12. Crystal Lake
1. Ghostchant
Sever your relation to those who are dependent on
breathing the obvious in it only turns your lips blue.
Turns your lips blue.
Unfastens inspiration from your throat.
No one around so you slash pretty skin.
You told me they drove you to it.
How many times do I have to turn the switch
to warn you about jumping in the back of the cars.
They cut the tendon so you'd be to wasted to hold it all.
No one around so you slash pretty skin.
You told me they drove you to it.
How many times have you woken up in a strangers arms
covered in the gasoline as they hover above you
with the match they ignite.
2. Loved Ones
Sit across from you, why are we even here?
There is no way to make up for the 20 years.
I love trying to make conversation when I could careless of what you're
doing,
what are you doing? And I know you never cared 'till now.
All my days go back to when you would scream.
And it froze me.
Guess the screaming runs in the family.
You look tired and run-down. Are you even excited to see your baby boy?
Put a razor to the skin 'till we don't resemble each other anymore.
Sit across from you, why are we even here?
There is no way to make up for the 20 years.
So now I see the tears welling up, finally you care I've waited all my life
for this.
It's always been over, it's always been over, it's always been over for us.
A single tear, a last resort for all who've never felt.
Sit across from you, why are we even here?
There is no way to make up for these 20 years.
If I could flip this table I'd stab you with every word that lied its way
out of your head.
3. For A Bandaged Iris
I know we've never met and you'll probably never read this.
There are certain things your voice does to me, it makes me feel the ground
and sky again.
How sad it is when you spill your guts on the paper.
It only neglects you and never relieves.
In every corner and space I search for you,
I've only found your vocal cords.
Hate that I'm never certain of what needs what most.
All day your songs spin me into a romance repeatedly to the sky.
Scream over and over again repeatedly to the sky.
In every corner and space I search for you,
I've only found your vocal cords.
Hate that I'm never certain of what needs what most.
And nothing has affected me so...
In every corner and space I search for you,
I've only found your vocal cords.
Hate that I'm never certain of what needs what most.
4. Meeting Again For The First Time
Barely able to keep the lids open
At times I might think I need the rest
but who would want to go back there?
It's already hard enough to say I need it.
bad memories and good times.
Keep me from believing that I can still jump off.
No longer, no longer the same.
you grow accustomed to seeing the sun in a different location.
Standing still becomes a chore.
Anxious to get the pavement moving.
The easy solution to this and everything else is to move on.
It comes equipped with the last word.
they find ways to drag you along
and dismantle what you created.
It's already hard enough to say I need it
Bad memories and good times.
Keep me from believing that I can still jump off.
No longer, no longer the same.
You grow accustomed to seeing the sun in a different location.
Standing still becomes a chore.
Anxious to get the pavement moving.
Happiness is not having to lie on the floor dead alone.
5. A) The View From Here Is... B) A Brick Wall
Covered from head to toe in lighting,
it's constantly changing when I'm around.
Days left before this is over and done with.
The sheets keep whispering "will you make it through this day?"
I'll practice making scenarios that aren't really there.
The corner hasn't helped in so long it speeds everything up now.
Back and forth, walking every piece of baggage off of me.
Hope when it hits they ground they turn to ash.
Sing the words even though they don't make sense at all.
I believe letters keep me warm.
I believe letters keep me company.
Tonight and forever in this room with mood lighting.
Even though it doesn't make sense.
6. The Realist
Please just this once, do this for me.
I've seen you in clouded visions saying goodbye.
I remember when we were gonna sit each other down and explain ourselves.
Always busy blame myself.
Your color was blue myself is making me feel that way.
I apologize apologize you're old enough to take care of...
If we can't speak go back to your bed so you'll be here when I wake up.
And I'm worried with no reason why.
Harm is an acquaintance and says it's not very fond of you.
Just this once "stay" I say. "I'll see you soon" he says.
Until you come back I will stay awake.
Your color was blue myself is making me feel that way.
I apologize apologize, you're old enough to take care of...
7. Zombies Are Good For Your Health
This morning when I awoke from the cushioned coils,
eyes pouring their little hearts. It didn't feel normal waking here
religiously,
thinking the same black thoughts.
As always you weren't lying next to me,
with that smirk on your face right then.
Were you giving me the images constantly flickering.
I'll take the advice passed down.
I see you on your side, bad luck.
Starlit nights when I awoke from the cushioned coils,
eyes pouring their little hearts. It didn't feel normal.
Nightmares stop reality, thinking the same black thoughts.
And this is the last time I'll be confused or compromise my emotions.
8. The Opinionated Are So Opinionated
9. Apathy Is A Cold Body
This person staring through
This person staring through the reflective
You've turned and run off with all
to the other side with you
and I know, I know
you try so damn hard to be so happy.
So you say, what do I do now that you are me?
I'll fade with time, just like in the dream.
Inherit my shoes, they were too hard to fill anyways.
I want it to go well for you, start over and do it right this time for me.
Open the eyes, look at this wall and notice the one that borrows and steals.
I do this to myself.
Stick to the side roads,
they help interesting thoughts.
You see what you want to see.
10. Sounds Like The End Of The World
Sir you've opened your eyes too late in the day.
They wait for you in the room.
You know they are having conversations of punishment.
Last night you lost control.
Broke all their blood pumping mechanisms.
So you stand in front of the polished sand.
Wondering what will become of you and them.
They are scared.
Burn them like you did the rest.
They are dead.
One step in front of the other.
You make your way to them.
You rehearsed your words so many times.
Say it like you mean it.
You always yell.
11. Pleasant Bullet
I've woken up everyday with my eyebrows pointing at my mouth.
Making all who care for me go through all my worst times with me.
And I give them no choice...all my worst times with me.
I need to be unhappy to smile, but I haven't quite got the hang of it yet.
I need to figure out why this room has blinds that never open.
It's so hard to be these days.
I wasted all my time trying to remember
the word content was.
There isn't much to open eyes for.
I want to be excited just haven't been educated yet.
Wonder how long it will take before they leave me behind.
Questions in and questions out, they always ask me.
It's so hard to be these days.
I wasted all my time trying to remember
the word content was.
I just want to be happy.
12. Crystal Lake
Overheard your conversation.
Tonight I'm not satisfied.
Sitting here I realize that I always think I'm right.
So it's over for all of you.
My scenery is lakes and trees
I just can't keep all concrete.
I've fallen for this metal and I love this handle
So it's over for all of you
Two round holes cut into this fabric.
And I will slide it over my head.
I'll chase you for all hours.
I never see you make the effort to chase me.
Now your final place is this lake.
Stare at me now on your way down.
Tear From The Red
1. Botchla
2. Lazzaro
3. Turn Down Elliot
4. Rings From Corona
5. Moments Over Exaggerate
6. Horns And Tails
7. Sticks And Stones Never Made Sense
8. Pieces Of You In Me
9. Karsey Street
10. Parks And What You Meant To Me
1. Botchla
But I adore her
this will never happen
but I adore HER
this will NEVER happen
over my DEAD body
of course I think ABOUT it
burn my path if it does
shape my body as I feel
torn
shape my body as I FEEL
torn BROKEN
and if it happens
I'll BURN and crawl deeper in my hole
darkness ALWAYS says hello
and your BURNING BODY will light my way
burning body LIGHT MY WAY
2. Lazzaro
you say I need you
but how about the DEMONS in my head
I'm sure you don't miss them
cup my ears over and over when you speak
and I can't believe that you are here
I hate your eyes
it's been nice without you
and every word you say affecting me
keep your hands and your knees
because you'll need them later
you always smell the same
everything smells of you
I hate your eyes
you always smell the same
everything smells of you
you wanted it all
but now you can't see
what you adored in me
kill me again and again
so I can relive every moment with you
3. Turn Down Elliot
With every part of mine
fall away with every bit of you
I miss me
give me some place to find
I'll meet cold everyday
think of all I need you around
but for now anyways
hands held tight around me leave me
hands held tight around me
with every part of mine
fall away with every bit of you
I miss me
give me some place to find
I'll meet cold everyday
think of all I need you around
but for now anyway
hands held tight around me leave me
hands held tight around
I'll hang neck tight from anything for you
skies most wanted good-byes
you missed my face again
4. Rings From Corona
With everything I've dragged in
venomous beings and all
It's nice to think that everything falls into place
but it doesn't
so guilty
so weak
so lost without you
now I know so guilty
so weak
stop calling me
please keep calling me
open your mouth to see if it's the truth
turn around so you can't see me say I miss you
stop calling
keep calling
stop calling me
5. Moments Over Exaggerate
Open everything around
how I want to say kiss me
you don't want to ruin anything
daring and beautiful stones
AIM at me
you never AIM at me
cursed with never being seen in your dreams
I'll walk around dead to you
I'll lie around dead to me
I feel soon
you'll wake with imaginary dreams
and wanting to hold this memory
always wondering who's coming to save
who's saving me
cursed with never being seen in your dreams
I'll walk around dead to you
I'll lie around dead to me
open everything around so all can see
how fast you waved good-bye
6. Horns And Tails
Gray chairs cold but here for me
thankfully I don't miss your skin
or the way that you always have something to say
lose myself in you
cut it in you
with my rusty fingers
what I'd do for one more day
without you
I'm leaving again on metal heart breaker
all I wanted to say was
fuck you
miles away but you still seem to be here
I never took your eyes out of my bag
7. Sticks And Stones Never Made Sense
Thought that I would
shove everything aside
to shake your hand
barbed wire wouldn't come fast enough
why does your name leave a bad taste in my mouth
when it rolls off my tongue
in your world excuses mean everything
stitch me for days because
I keep splitting myself for you
why does your face seem better on the floor
have you thought about death today
ask me I'll help
you never knew me
these are my last words
not that it matters anymore
8. Pieces Of You In Me
You never understand
when you always act the same
oh beautiful your lips taste of red
copper always excited me
I need to hear your laugh when I'm dying on the other line
you perform better when I'm not near you
and it cracks the world spins away
I'm flying again
I can't believe that this is over again
pieces will carry away pieces of you in me
9. Karsey Street
i've seen the horror
the horrors that you've seen
but you have no right to murder
you have no right to kill me
i have a right to do that
but you have no right to judge me
its impossible for words to disregard what is nessarcary
to those who do not know what horror means
horror...
horror..has a face
and you must make a friend of horror
horror and moral tear are your friends
if they are not
then they are enemies to be feared
they are truly enemies
10. Parks And What You Meant To Me
Wrap around
the white pavement feels so inviting
so lie back and gain bruises with me
it's been a long time since I've seen you from above
your still beautiful
leave here we'll start something new in our embrace
with that crash your parts into mine
intoxicate me
with your many voices
and I'll never leave you I'll never leave here
so lost inside of you till now I think we waited so long
lock your doors and close your shades
I'll never find
The Opposite Of December... A Season Of Seperation
1. 12/23/93
2. A Wish For Wings That Work
3. Artists Rendering Of Me
4. Slice Paper Wrists
5. Nerdy
6. To Mandate Heaven
7. Not Within Arms Length
8. Mid Air Love Message
9. My Mirror No Longer
1. 12/23/93
Gouge out my eyes / pestilence
lack of love binds / propagate / the strife you desire
keep me from forced self depiction / abhorate
self assured I am no more / take this away from me once more /
thirsted for something that never existed /
Complacent / I am abomination / I replace
absence of malice / sew my mouth shut
the silent sound of the end / I drown in tears
Sinking in dreams / Of what I once owned
I avoid the setting of the sun [x2]
Memories fade as you did once before
Stole hope from right under my eyes
Accomplice of my death
2. A Wish For Wings That Work
Could I end my life with a knife shaped of problems
sweet satisfaction of a night sky with horns
a papercut bleeds like a cut vein
could this sky open up and accept this tortured soul
but my wings have yet to work
but my wings have yet to work
change means nothing
when nothing wants to change
save your strength for the first disappointment
change means nothing
when nothing wants to change
save your strength for the first, for the first
forever is such an unpleasant word
it begins to eat you / from the inside out / beg for sleep
as this noose is tied around around your neck
a papercut bleeds like a cut vein
could this sky open up and accept this tortured soul
but my wings have yet to work
but my wings have yet to work
forever is such an unpleasant word
it begins to eat you / from the inside out / beg for sleep
as this noose is tied around your neck
as its tied around your neck
Could I end my life with a knife shaped of problems
shaped of problems
3. Artists Rendering Of Me
With all my said unsaids / Never swallow
The idea of a happy ending
Another days memory dies
As I'm made to smile / these lifeless days
have left me with an empty heart
another wounded memory dies
I could / never / swallow your false ideals
of a lifeless / happy ending
how could words slit wrists and doors close
present day heart felt moments / killed by a slap
to the hand / another wounded memory dries
poisonous screams with messages
not thought of when released
another day here / another memory dies
4. Slice Paper Wrists
When you read this / I will not be the same
I have let my true form show
this is my last / lost in all my guilt
for letting you fall / understand it wasn't me
but I can't dream without showing intentions
as I ask these questions / where were you
now I can't see through your eyes
I remember the day the sun went out
It halted all progression with all its beauty
it just sacrificed / we fell apart
Sincerely yours I've disowned you [x3]
Sincerely yours I've disowned us
5. Nerdy
Why do your eyes paralyze me
What makes me feel this way
Just carry me away with silence and heartbeats
As rapid thinking about your embrace
and how it makes me feel
I just want to feel this way forever
Sleep on portraits painted as perfect as you
Why have I been given the chance to fly
When I'm not with you I feel lesser alone
I remember your face / imprinted on angels
Your voice as beautiful / as the sounds of waves
crashing against my heart
Time slows down when you look at me
I'm infatuated with this / infatuated with you
It's so hard for me to understand why
I hadn't found you before don't dull away
hold my hand
6. To Mandate Heaven
I know very well the rain falls in drops [x2]
Winds call me
As rain falls in drops I drop my head
I'm ashamed and tempted to say
My heart has caught up to me
but still these words hold my hand
Please stay a while longer
I don't want to be alone
To see in your eyes is to stare in clear skies.
Clouds don't trail me anymore
7. Not Within Arms Length
Not within arms length
I'd sever the stars from the sky
and place them in your hands
if I thought another wish / they'd see the light of day
but you stand beyond the sun
Beyond the reach of just a friend
maybe if i grew wings / maybe if you lost yours
these words would flow like water
if you'd let them scrape your heart
Not with in arms length
embedded within my concise effort
a silent cry / I receive no comfort
and as I collapse we remain nothing more than friends
As I hold my breath / a throat full of cement
I'm disgusted by repetition I accept this curse
of friendship / your friend / friendship
8. Mid Air Love Message
Kisses are never safe when residue of old love is left
how could I feel lesser when someone better
walks around / waiting for you to call out
As your cold hand grasps mine I feel unright
and privileged to be able to look
in your eyes / same chemical as stars
Deformed fingers leave trails of hearts in writing
could three words be the end to births only meaning
Crying to sleep is my remedy
urgently trying to stand on broken / confused legs
Am I looking for reasons not to be happy
emotions catch up with me / I'm too fast for them
9. My Mirror No Longer
Choke on your forked tongue as you lie to me again
Say it's too early to show how we feel
just shove me away / but what can be said
to someone who can't hear
or comprehend your actions
I've lost faith in what I've been told / it's all a lie
I show true feelings always feeling the pain
Smash me to the ground a thousand times as before
But I can't rationalize anymore / carry me away
on concrete pillows incinerate me once more
Love means nothing to you anymore
blood stains on the wall with disfigured forms / end me
Distance Only Makes The Heart Grow Fonder
1. Grain Of Salt
2. Lost In Silence
3. Torn
4. Obstacle
5. Material Christ
1. Grain Of Salt
Another day passes by.
Another attempt at love remains unrequited.
Why do I even bother?
I should have learned from the past.
I am but a statue, impervious to love.
This punctured heart is mine,
Becomes a handful of dust.
Dust. Hope has now wilted away,
Wilted. Along with these dreams
That became emptiness.
A final exit becomes clear, I am self destructive.
A product of this solitude, I am riddled with shards.
One simple wish now dies.
Was my request so great?
One simple wish now dies.
Once again I drown in its denial.
Was it so complicated?
Once again. I've been spit upon.
Taken with a grain of salt, my life is.
2. Lost In Silence
I've left my mark, I've made my statement.
I won't go unnoticed past this day.
My personal ideals a building block for this world.
Never again will I sit in silence.
As many sit by and watch our world pass by.
I refuse to take my seat, I refuse to die in silence.
So many die in silence, their voices go unheard.
They sit unnoticed, they stand alone.
Their voices dictate the way your life is lived.
Too afraid to speak, too scared to oppose
The fear inside you breeds your silence.
So now you live the life or another.
3. Torn
Feelings non-existent, loss of a tortured soul.
So cold and fearful, unnoticed and unclaimed.
Left as one alone, on the endless road.
To bear on for a lifetime, of loneliness.
She sits alone and slowly fades
away into nothingness and as she struggles on.
Her mind begins to wander.
Thoughts of endless bliss.
The wind her only friend.
Never again to be cared for.
She tries to hold her head up high.
Just a mask to hide the tears behind.
Only wanting to die, As they sit by and watch
Another dead existence, dreams torn apart.
As the spirit dies. Hiding behind the lies.
And silent darkness.
4. Obstacle
As the weakened attempt to stand.
The cold wind of progression
causes their downfall.
Taking what was theirs, now you can call it yours.
Your thievery justified by legislation and might.
The control of majority never ceases
To overpower the wounded and unfortunate.
Left for dead without a second thought.
Looking deep into a mirror.
The image frightens you.
What you've become. Your own obstacle.
The burden placed on your shoulders,
Causes guilt to flow.
Through a once deadened soul.
Which took so much, from so many others.
One choice is left. To take from yourself.
What they worked so hard to achieve.
Taken by your hand of disdain.
And as you realize, that mirror doesn't lie.
And the self you imagined is yet another fantasy.
And as realization takes its toll.
A cold feeling overwhelms you.
And you've become your own.
5. Material Christ
Your so-called meager life is plagued with riches.
Born by the strong beliefs of your many victims
The task that they entrusted, within your powers.
Yet they remain unchanged.
Your god in non-existent.
You speak of your God, does he condemn your life?
You're nothing but a hypocrite.
Actions speak over words
The many sins you've lived.
The many lives you've told.
You're defaming yourself
Where's your conscience?
Do you think this is an excess of assets.
While they hope to eat your golden spoon.
Their hand to mouth after their final days.
Where will you go?
Your sins direct you, not your words.
Your God is nothing, your god is nothing.
Your God is non-existent, He's nothing. |
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