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Ataris - Anywhere but here

1.1-2-3-4
2.As We Speak
3.Bite My Tongue
4.Hey Kid!
5.Take Me Back
6.Are We There Yet?
7.Angry Nerd Rock
8.Let it Go
9.Lately
10.Alone in Santa Cruz
11.Make it Last
12.Sleepy
13.Four Chord Wonder
14.Blind and Unkind
15.Clara
16.Myself
17.Neilhouse
18.Perfectly Happy
19.Boxcar
20.Ray...


1-2-3-4
one, two, three, four!


AS WE SPEAK
it's nice to meet someone with a future as fucked up as mine. so, i'm unpredictable, is this some fucking sign of the times? i take pride in what i do, and i do it well. call me easy-going but at least i have a finished story to tell. cause' tomorrow i just might be another face on your t.v. being arrested for telephone fraud or beating someone to death with my guitar! but i know i will go far, i know i will go... far enough to tell you that i love you but i know i'm stupid just because i run right back to you. i got your letters yesterday but i do have a thing to say, so i'll nail em' to my wall and just pretend they'll go away! i don't wanna love you, but it's something that i love to do. so i'll say this one last thing and then i'm... gone away for good... was i misunderstood? i guess that it's too late to save you now!


BITE MY TONGUE
what can i say? i'll bite my tongue again today. what can i do when i feel so stupid over you? i wish they'd just go ahead and cut it off. and, i don't wanna work anymore cause' sometimes i just can't ignore the way i feel when i see you smile. and someday i'll just shut my eyes and maybe then you'll realize... i'm just a fucking geek in love with you. when's the right time to use a stupid pick up line? "so how's the weather??? do you wanna spend the night together?"


HEY KID!
i wait for the day to come when i'll wake up and be a star. i dream of a different world... somewhere where we will go far. i bitch about my life. i bitch about the scene. i hate this fucking town and wish that it was just a dream. (chorus) bitch, bitch, bitch! that's all you ever do. bitch, bitch, bitch! your ego will destroy you. bitch, bitch, bitch! that's all i have to say. bitch, bitch, bitch! now i'll just fade away. (insert lame guitar solo here.) just as long as i act cool then people will suck up to me. they won't realize that i'm a fake and that's what i'm always going to be. a dreamer and a kid who changes every day. someone that has to talk when he's got nothing to say hey kid, it's a great big world out there that you think you need to see. hey kid, go on and live that life... but live it without me! (chorus #2) bitch, bitch, bitch! that's all you ever do. bitch, bitch, bitch! no one's more punk than you. bitch bitch, bitch! your life is just a trend. bitch, bitch, bitch! we'll see who's happy in the end.


TAKE ME BACK
i am blue, the sky is grey, i guess it's better off that way. there's really not much left to say. i called you on the phone, another guy said that you weren't at home, but, i don't care i'll call you again anyway. baby i'd give you the world... please forget about those fifteen other girls. i don't care what they say... i didn't mean to stand you up on our wedding day. i'm sorry that i gave you that infection, and said we had sex on the love connection. can i ever make it up to you? i'm sorry that i made you mad, the things i did just didn't seem that bad... except for maybe when i blew up your car. oh baby what can i do??? every girl i'm with makes me think of you. i call your name in my sleep, too bad you think that i'm a creep. please take me back... (x5)


ARE WE THERE YET?
i think that we're lost again and this looks like the shitty side of town. we're running out of gas and the sun is going... down... down... down. time to turn around and start heading back in the right direction now, but my map is upside down. i just wanna make it to the show, but i don't think that we're gonna go. i can see the headline now... "four punks found dead again... we know you don't care... but, film at ten. and, now on to sports." things are looking bleak, everybody thinks that i'm a geek. we're hiding all our cash, my fingernails are digging in the dash. "why didn't you ask for directions? what cracker jack box did you find your license in? you stupid piece of shit... i'll never ride with you again!" i just wanna make it to the show, but, i don't think that we're gonna go. "just pull over let me drive!" everybody wants me dead. i think the club is up ahead. it feels good to be alive!


ANGRY NERD ROCK
time to burn it all away, time to think of what to say time to go right back to yesterday. time for movements in the past, time for something that won't last. not just fire quick and die off fast. things are never what they seem, i'm stuck inside of someone else's dream. problems never go away... i'm sick of being caught in yesterday. every day it's still the same, different faces, different names, but still stuck here playing these stupid games. maybe soon i'll figure out what giving up is all about. my heart is filled so full of doubt. don't turn around, don't look ahead i won't listen to all the lies i'm fed. don't have to listen to you so don't you fucking tell me what to do.


LET IT GO
forgot about that girl i didn't kiss... about the one show that i missed... i sorta figured out that things will turn out alright. there's no use holding on to the past, live it up man, have a blast! stop your whining pal and go and have some fun tonight! (chorus) you gotta let it go... (x3) and things will turn out alright. you gotta let it go... (x3) and have some fun tonight! my life is changing so rapidly i'm not sure what i wanna be... but, i understand i've still got a lot to learn. i'm pretty happy with my life. and, i'm really glad you said you'd be my wife even though we know that forever has an end. i'm gonna tell the world about my baby girl. starla is her name, oh yes indeed! (repeat chorus)


LATELY
lately i've been feeling a little bit neglected. when it comes to your ex-boyfriends, well, i guess i'm overprotective. but it's nothing personal i just wanted you to tell me that you care. lately i've been thinking bout' stickin' my hand in a toaster. i never asked to take a ride on this emotional roller-coaster. it's you that i want, and lately it feels like you're not there. lately i've been contemplating jumping in the ocean. sometimes even spock would show a little more emotion! do you still love me now as much as you loved me yesterday? (chorus) i try to let it out,,, i bitch, cry, moan, whine, scream and shout today, but the wall wouldn't listen to me! why wouldn't it listen to me? i'm sick of always cryin' i don't wanna be sick of trying, but you've gotta want me to. lately i've been hoping for a little bit of affection. sometimes i wish that you had came with your own set of directions. i guess it's not that easy, but i hope that you still love me anyway. lately i've been thinkin' bout' takin' a vow of silence. i've never seen a monk result in any acts of violence. or, maybe i'll just cry and hope you come around again today. (repeat chorus)


ALONE IN SANTA CRUZ
did i ever tell you that i really love you ... and i think about you all day? i really miss you and wish i could kiss you but why are you so far away? (chorus) since you've been gone i've thought over and over about you inside my head and where i went wrong, where i went wrong everyday ... i've been thinkin' a lot about all of the things you'd say since i went away ... since i went away ... i guess i could call you and ask you "how are you?" but i really don't have much to say i sit all alone and i stare at the phone and i hope that you're doing o.k. (repeat chorus)


MAKE IT LAST
there's alot on my mind so i guess that i'll take it one thing at a time, still sometimes i can't help but wonder why... i sit around all day and i waste my whole damn life away, still thinkin' bout' just what there is to say. (chorus #1) should i say goodnight??? ...go to bed, turn out the fucking light and leave you shining in the past. should i try and forget??? ...even though next week it's something i'll regret. or, should i try and make it last? i think about the day when i felt you'd throw it all away to try and make me feel like i'm the one. you were my best friend, and i never ever thought those days would end but now it seems like they are gone. (chorus #2) what more can i say??? ...i never wanted it to be this way, and where the hell is yesterday??? ...we sure had a blast! i'm sorry that we're living in the past, should we try and make it last? (repeat chorus #1)


SLEEPY
it's frivolous, it's pointless, i'm waiting here in line. i'd buy a cup of coffee but i just wanna kill some time. i'm watching you, now, i'm staring at you. i figure that you notice, but you really don't have a clue. (a clue) time sure does fly when your just a lonely boy, waiting for someone to come along and ruin your fun. sitting all alone with that quiet smile on your face. i pretend i'm not interested by staring off in to space. why did i act like i didn't even care? now i wish that you could only be there. a game of cat and mouse that curiosity has killed, just call it pointless... call it what you will.


FOUR CHORD WONDER
how many bands have wrote this song before? i can name at least fifty... i bet you could name a hundred more. there's over a couple thousand chord progressions around. will someone tell me who decided they'd run this one into the ground?! (chorus) i'm putting a stop to it once and for all! i'm putting my fist right through the wall! i'm telling you one and all... you better not write this stupid song again! "i've got a little plan, so listen up. we could write a four chord wonder, and make a million bucks!" no need to mention names cause' you know who you are. take word of my advice or i'll break your guitar! i think it's time to set things straight... i just write the song i hate. and, i'll write it again and again and again. (repeat chorus)


BLIND AND UNKIND
you inhale the toxic fumes, i look away, and then resume to... do all the things that i told myself i wouldn't ever do. why do i always believe, that i'm in love with everyone i see? and, why did the next one have to be you? why do you believe that everything i say is true? (chorus) why must i always do this? why do i put myself through this? love is blind and so unkind... i never can make up my mind! i undo the thought from my head, forgetting all you ever said. today it's you, tomorrow someone else, maybe i'm just better off by myself! i forget that it's just you... and not some person that i've always knew! (repeat chorus) love is blind... love is a lie!


CLARA
i saw you cryin' as i turned away did i see your face, like it wasn't there and i knew i was wrong ... yeah, i knew it all along but i didn't care about you clara, where are you today? and did you make the same mistakes ... that i made, a million times before i met you did you go, did you run, did you think of your son? did you know you're not the only one ... that tried to make a peice of coal into a diamond yeah! so everything's fine now, at least you say maybe that's o.k. - but you know it's wrong was i right, did it last? were you dwelling on the past??? or hanging on to a memory so you say yout time will never come maybe you should go ahead and jump ... the you'll become exactly what you are hanging onto standing there on the bridge with your feet on the ledge maybe i might push you over the edge ... and send you falling straight to the ground


MYSELF
i live my life day by day hating it in every way. sitting all alone keeping to myself, far away from everyone else. even though i feel alone inside, sometimes i find it hard to hide. it's hard to keep my feelings in, i just wanna express myself again. i'm gonna speak my mind. you should speak your mind! (x2) i wonder how i'll tell you how i feel, and how do i know if this feeling's really real? i don't understand the reasons why instead of speaking your mind you don't even try... ...or even care. you don't even care. (x3)


NEILHOUSE
it all started that one day when i had nothing more to say to you so i ran the other way. love is for morons. but, who's this fucking idiot that i see staring right back at me??? will someone tell me what's right or wrong anymore? cause' everywhere i go i wonder what i'm searching for. i think of all the times i've thought of you and masturbated. all this pre-teen shit has got me so frustrated! don't turn around cause' there's nothing more for you back there. i'd send a postcard, but it'd say how much that i don't care. i'm goin' east to say the least to see the queers, how true. i'll be at the neilhouse but i'll be without you! don't try to tell me you can't have any fun. you played me for a fucking fool but now you get to be one... don't go.


PERFECTLY HAPPY
won't be another statistic... won't be a minority... i'll achieve every goal i have... there's not a thing that i can't be! just as long as i am happy, that's all that matters to me. i'll walk away from this place on that unhappy day that i have to follow rules, this so-called book you go by was written for a fool! maybe now you understand life from my point of view, i've got my head on straight and have no urge to be like ì you! oh sure i strive for a better life. but, is that so fucking wrong??? change in my pocket... girl by my side... perfectly happy.


BOXCAR
you're not punk, and i'm telling everyone. save your breath, i never was one. you don't know what i'm all about. like killing cops and reading kerouac. my enemies are all too familiar. they're the ones who used to call me friend. i'm coloring outside your guidelines. i was passing out when you were passing our your rules. one. two. three. four. who's punk what's the score? got a friend. her name is boxcar. cigarettes and beer in el sob. her hair was blue, now it's green. i like her mind. she hates the scene. you're on your own. you're all alone.


RAY...
sometimes i sit and think about yesterday... of all those simple words that i didn't even say. i just sit back and wonder why... (wonder why...) ...everything is just bought and sold, and why everyone listens to what they're told. no matter what you do you'll never get ahead and to everyone else you're just better off dead! sometimes i sit and watch you on t.v. and i just think about how cruel it would be... to call your family at a quarter til' four. "ray doesn't live here anymore..." (anymore...) survey... sez, survey sez yeah! survey... sez.

 

 

Ataris - Look forward to failure

1.San Dimas HS Football Rules
2.Not a Worry in the World
3.My So-Called Life
4.My Hotel Year
5.Between You and Me
6.That Special Girl


SAN DIMAS HS FOOTBALL RULES
last night i had a dream that we went to disneyland, went on all the rides, didn't have to wait in line. i drove you to your house where we stared up at the stars i listened to your heartbeat as i held you in my arms. we hung out at the rainbow where we drank til' half past two. nothing could go wrong anytime that i'm with you. like crashing a hotel room or leading up to that first kiss or searching for a high school that you know doesn't exist... these are the things that make me free i feel like i'm stuck in "stand by me" this night was too good to be true. today i woke up alone wishing you were here with me, i wanted us to be something that we'd probably never be. today you called me up and said you'd see me at our show, but now i'm stuck debating if i even wanna go. whitney, don't you understand that what i say is true? i just want you to know i have a major crush on you. i'd drive you to las vegas and do the things you wanna do i'd even have wayne newton dedicate a song to you. i only wish that this could be just dump your boyfriend and go out with me i swear i'd treat you like a queen.


NOT A WORRY IN THE WORLD
Do you remember all the things we did? and what it's like to be a kid. being young and skipping school, i guess we must have broken every rule! i never thought those times would last forever, but now that they're gone i'm pretty sure we grew up to fast. i've had my wishes on a star i hope that yours came true. now all i've got is a memory of you. (chorus) not a worry in.. (x7) ... the world! i remember when you moved away, you promised me that you'd be back one day, but times have changed and so have i, it sucks that friendships end with a goodbye. i never thought that frienships last forever. but now that you're gone i'm pretty sure we end up all the same. still i won't say goodbye. won't ever say goodbye. and know that i'll always be your friend. (repeat chorus)


MY SO-CALLED LIFE
ever since i saw you on my so-called life, i've been writing you these letters asking you to be my wife. but its been almost a year and still i've gotten no reply, i'm assuming you have met some other guy. so i sit in my room, watch romeo & juliet a thousand times. i wish i was as cool as leonardo is but i'm not. (chorus) i went on jerry springer to confess my love to you you said i didn't have a chance and there was nothing i could do you told me i was crazy and wished that i was dead. you threw a chair right upside my head today i highjacked a plane i wrote your name across the sky, miss clare danes. but they were waiting on the ground to take me straight to jail (chorus) im staring at your pictures from my lonely little cell i'm writing you this letter to let you know i doing well until we meet again you know i'll cry a thousand tears and i'll see you in another twenty years. i'll see you in another twenty years. i'll see you in another twenty years.


MY HOTEL YEAR
i saw the stars fall from the sky and watched the tail lights fade away as the sun began to witness a new day. i drove five hundred thousand miles to find a world unlike my own, and now middle of nowhere seems like my home. alone, unknown... yet fearing nothing but ourselves could be scarier than any crowded room. i'm more alone with you than when i'm by myself. another night stuck on the vine, another low lit memory where time will slowly have it's way with me. we live our lives to expect the worst but once it happens what is left? we will never have to be surprised again. just you and me not saying much of anything sometimes could mean more than a thousand words goodbye, farewell to this fucked up world that was my former self. we never seem to have the time until we waste it all gone, goodbye... think and think alike, never seemed to have the time until one day it's all gone, you've thrown it all away. i'm glad you were a part of my hotel year.


BETWEEN YOU AND ME
won't you come over? you know that you want to. how does it feel to know i still want you? why do we always seem, to want what we can't have? lessons learned. but then i listen to my heart, and it says still run back for more. i'm happy for you. i'm sure that he really loves you. but it breaks my heart, to know i can't hold you. it's just hard to think i'll never get the chance to say your mine. but every time you hear this song you'll know you've made a mark on my heart and my mind.


THAT SPECIAL GIRL
i need a girl who like to go to shows i need a girl that won't make fun of my clothes. i'm looking for a special girl who wants to go all over the world, if you're my special girl won't you let me know? do you have a boyfriend? or possibly a girlfriend? cause! i'm lonely all the time and i wish that it would end. i need a girl that likes to stay out late, we'd share a cocktail, wouldn't it be great? if only this were true then i would fall in love with you, i'm looking for a special girl... could it be you? i could write a stupid love song, and sing it all across the world but it wouldn't mean a thing. until i find my special girl. when will i find my special girl? (x69)

 

 

Ataris - Blue skies, broken hearts, next 12 exits

1.Losing Streak
2.1*15*96
3.San Dimas HS Football Rules
4.Your Boyfriend Sucks
5.I Won't Spend Another Night Alone
6.Broken Promise Ring
7.Angry Nerd Rock (new)
8.The Last Song I Will Ever Write About a Girl
9.Choices
10.Better Way
11.My Hotel Year (acoustic)
12.Life Makes No Sense
13.Answer
14.In Spite of the World


LOSING STREAK
you only know what you've been taught. you'll never stop til' you get caught. you control the future and it's looking bleak. seems like we're headed for another losing streak. and the fire's burning bright and still we act like everything's all right "i guess if we ignore it, it'll probably go away." if you believe that bullshit please see exhibit a. forget about friendship, hey! let's destroy the enemy. well if there's one thing that i've learned my enemies are just as close to me. you keep your problems deep inside. you always play that game of run and hide. even though they told you to see is to believe, it didn't take you long to know that looks they can deceive. don't give up fighting 'til nothing else stands in your way. don't give up talking until there's nothing left to say but no matter what you do. don't ever compromise what you believe.


1*15*96
let me start this from the day we met. you looked so beautiful, i never will forget. then you opened up your eyes, looked at me and kinda smiled. i was scared, but still happy at the same time. i never wanted us to be a superficial family. but in the end it was the only thing we could be. angie, i'm sorry i wasn't right for you just what did you expect for me to do? you know that i would have done anything for you. i sometimes think about how things could be if you would've took a chance and moved out here with me. we'd cruise along the 101 in the california sun sing descendents songs and have ourselves lots of fun. stay out drinking really late stumble home from lower state. treat every day like it would be our first date. angie, i'm sorry that you weren't right for me. i guess that it just wasn't meant to be. i quit pretending you were in love with me.


SAN DIMAS HS FOOTBALL RULES
last night i had a dream that we went to disneyland, went on all the rides, didn't have to wait in line. i drove you to your house where we stared up at the stars i listened to your heartbeat as i held you in my arms. we hung out at the rainbow where we drank til' half past two. nothing could go wrong anytime that i'm with you. like crashing a hotel room or leading up to that first kiss or searching for a high school that you know doesn't exist... these are the things that make me free i feel like i'm stuck in "stand by me" this night was too good to be true. today i woke up alone wishing you were here with me, i wanted us to be something that we'd probably never be. today you called me up and said you'd see me at our show, but now i'm stuck debating if i even wanna go. whitney, don't you understand that what i say is true? i just want you to know i have a major crush on you. i'd drive you to las vegas and do the things you wanna do i'd even have wayne newton dedicate a song to you. i only wish that this could be just dump your boyfriend and go out with me i swear i'd treat you like a queen.


YOUR BOYFRIEND SUCKS
you're better off without him, don't call him... he's breaking your heart. he's hanging with your best friend and your waiting there, it's tearing you apart. he lied to you a thousand times, when i was there he kept you waiting. and i'm still here waiting there to catch you if you fall. i don't know why i care so much when i shouldn't care at all. finally got the nerve to tell you how much you mean to me you said that i was your best friend, a real sweet guy, but that's all i'd ever be.


I WON'T SPEND ANOTHER NIGHT ALONE
a star up in the sky goes slowly passing by, the lights below...they spell out your name. you're comfort on my mind and you're with me all the time. and lot's of feeling that i can't explain. i won't spend another night alone. out of every girl i meet, no other can compete i'd ditch em all for a night with you. i know you don't believe you mean this much to me but i promise you that you do. if i had one wish this is what it would be... i'd ask you to spend all your time with me, that we'd be together forever. we'd buy a small house in south central l.a. raise lots of kids then we'd both join a gang just as long as we're together. the things you make me wanna do i'd rob a quik-e-mart for you i'd go to the pound and let all the cats go free just as long as you'd be with me.


BROKEN PROMISE RING
i really wanna call you, but i know that it's not right. i probably shouldn't tell you but i dreamed of you last night. i guess i'm not prepared to say... goodbye, so long, farewell, i won't be seeing you again until next time that he goes away. you told me that you loved me, i started tearing down those walls. i really started to trust you but you set me up to take the fall. i guess i'm not prepared to say... goodbye, so long, farewell, i won't be seeing you again until next time that he goes away. i guess that i'm wrong for falling in love, but you're still the one that i'm dreaming of. i guess that it's you i want to hold onto, but you're holding onto someone else.


ANGRY NERD ROCK (NEW)
time to burn it all away, time to think of what to say time to go right back to yesterday. time for movements in the past, time for something that won't last. not just fire quick and die off fast. things are never what they seem, i'm stuck inside of someone else's dream. problems never go away... i'm sick of being caught in yesterday. every day it's still the same, different faces, different names, but still stuck here playing these stupid games. maybe soon i'll figure out what giving up is all about. my heart is filled so full of doubt. don't turn around, don't look ahead i won't listen to all the lies i'm fed. don't have to listen to you so don't you fucking tell me what to do.


THE LAST SONG I WILL EVER WRITE ABOUT A GIRL
broken heart again today... the flowers that i gave to you have withered all away. just when i opened up my heart the one you used to love came and ripped it right apart. why do i never seem to learn? that love is wrong and girls are fucking evil. i guess i'll never figure out what womankind is all about. i heard your voice again today i'm scarred by all the lies that were once promises you'd made. i lie in bed awake at night and wonder what went wrong or even more just what went right.


CHOICES
well i've got a couple things to say about a guy and a girl they met a few months back at a coffeehouse he said 'i like that dress that you're wearing why don't you just let me take you home tonight?" i know you've heard it all before and everyone makes mistakes these days... hey nobody's perfect but the choices that you make may involve someone else. well i met a girl i thought i loved but, unfortunately i guess i didn't take the time to get to know that girl before i made a lot of choices that i wasn't prepared to make. if you think you've found that one that you really love... make sure they love you back.


BETTER WAY
well i've got a couple things to say about a guy and a girl they met a few months back at a coffeehouse he said 'i like that dress that you're wearing why don't you just let me take you home tonight?" i know you've heard it all before and everyone makes mistakes these days... hey nobody's perfect but the choices that you make may involve someone else. well i met a girl i thought i loved but, unfortunately i guess i didn't take the time to get to know that girl before i made a lot of choices that i wasn't prepared to make. if you think you've found that one that you really love... make sure they love you back.


MY HOTEL YEAR
looking for a place to call my home where will i sleep tonight, even i don't know. you ask yourself 'is this how i want to live?" when empty hands have nothing more to give. so i drive around and pray that i will make it through today there's got to be a better way. you miss your wife; you miss your little girl. you left them stranded in a different world. can you forgive yourself for all the time you've lost? i wouldn't give that up at any cost. there's more to life than being in a band, your friends are what will matter in the end. i just want the chance to keep those promises i made there's got to be better way.


LIFE MAKES NO SENSE
everything is turning grey, but i won't hold my breath today cause' i'm not scared and to tell the truth i just don't care. are you looking for an answer? when you still don't know the question. it's like lighting candles in the rain- sometimes life can be a pain, but don't give up without a fight. sometimes when you feel afraid, don't give up and run away. cause' two wrongs don't make a right. what's the point in crying when you've don nothing wrong. it was right there all along. the world's nothing but a lie and everyone is going to die but what can i say? just help me make it through today. you don't need a destination just to go somewhere in life. it's like throwing feathers at the wind- they come right back to you again. so why not give it one more try? just cause' things aren't what they seem it doesn't mean you shouldn't dream just don't get your hopes to high. cause' when things don't turn out right you world comes crashing down.


ANSWER
i sat and thought the other day how it seems strange that we could walk through life so blind and how a lot of people never change. i'm not trying to say i have the answer all i know for sure is that we weren't put here to serve ourselves, that's so selfish to think that we're put on this earth just for pleasure i know that there's much more than that. but i won't tell you what it is; it's up to you to decide for yourself what is wrong and what is right and know that we all make mistakes, there's always time to turn your life around and change all the wrong decisions that you've made. and i promise that i won't settle for less. i won't write it off.


IN SPITE OF THE WORLD
i woke up from this dream to find that i was sleeping so i went back to sleep and i dreamed i was awake. i locked myself inside but you were on the outside i stood outside and watched but i couldn't let you in. maybe you could see inside yourself. wrote a letter to myself, but i couldn't bare to send it. so i tore it up and wrote a letter to a friend. if only you could know that growing up means letting go maybe then you'd grow up by yourself. i'm growing up again... i'm learning to accept that all good things must come to an end. i'm growing up again... i'm trying to understand what it's like to let go of a friend.